| #01-08-2008 What i thought i'd do and did and didnt....
~new yr's rambling~ it's been a while since i posted in this format, in fact i think it's been...2 yrs? The date and title and the subtitle, actually all based off Love Hina's anime episode titles, was adopted to use in my freshmen yr, i doubt i continued this trend after fish summer, esp not after xmas tragedy...but ah well... random things happened today that made me doubt on what i did in HS, all my plans and actions and such. It's easy to see how stubborn i have been, and how that could've led to my downfall. Luckily it has been alright so far, no defeat(not major ones), no trouble(i think not?), and sadly, no gf. lawl. Now lets see how stubborness and laziness and my unreasonably high self-confidence has affected the past 3.5 yrs:
1) debate class? not so much.
I still remember how the debate teachers came recruiting us in freshmen yr. "ah it's honor's credit, 5.0, takes place for speech class, blah". tons of ppl, majority being asian (99.9%? =O), were convinced, and changed their schedule for that class. I still remember alex wu calling me one time and askin should we switch to that class. I, meanwhile, just got my dumb schedule fixed from reg.geography to pre ap, up for another change and days of waiting and time to get adjusted to new classes again? not so much.
The debate ppl didnt quite give up tho. being in the same PE class w/ charles chen, micheal nock, jorgen nelson (sry about spellin if any is wrong), and for a while, even george li (hm...now i noticed how nerdy a PE class that is, lawl), has made things seem like debate is a must take, it's wut the top ppl must do, or else, i'd be a failure. Tho these benefits sounds great, the way debators acted sure didnt. lack of sleep, lack of full weekends, major usage of paper and time, plus a very unique debating strategy of talkin-faster-than-light, sounding more mechanical than monks in temple, these didnt attract me at all. i mean seriously, imagine in real life, if someone try to win an arguement against by talkin so fast that they dont sound sane anymore, i think i'd burst out laughin instead of gettin convinced of their opinion. and for the whole loosing half a weekend part, hell no. to me, saturday morning cartoons r more interesting than stay up all night at somewhere random preparing over a tournament.
do well in everything else, i thought, and i'd be fine. the world isnt made just for over-achievers and gpa whores, there r more than one way of winning in life. 2) huh? what's ib?
i seriously asked that last yr, on the last day to turn in fees for ib program. well ok, more like "wth is ib anyway? wut's it like?". seriously, being so uninterested in the gpa(grades-pwns-all) game, i never heard of it until end of soph yr, (apparently they didnt even think i was good enough to be invited to listen to them talkin about ib things, but then again that yr i wasnt at any of these kind of things due to counselor laziness and a 6th period art 1, didnt even get called to go fill out schedule for spring semester and junior yr....). anywayz, then comes in mrs.tsay, who dispite wut alot of ppl says, is actually a nice teacher, esp for her age. she told us that IB diploma doesnt come in until july after senior yr, and by then we would've already finished the whole college apps thingy, and since basically anyone w/ a bit of intellegence can take IB, it's really no more than a "oh thats nice, now wut else u got?" kind of thing on ur app. well i thought her logic made sense. and after hearing that the ib thing requires me to take like...8+ more uber tests, i saw no point in doing that. seriously, this crap takes more time than debate, and i didnt even join that. tho at this point i felt that i am gambling a bit, but the fact the most ppl who chose ib took debate made me sure that whoever will be ahead is already ahead and whoever is behind is still behind. no worries, i like my sleep. so no ib for me, bleh. 3) rogers vs lanier vs...pershing?
so the cocky attitude of the first two schools, (well no offense, and def. not directed toward everyone. who act like that? i think we all know, after almost 4 yrs), boasting/braggin/making others feel bad skill, along w/ their academic achivements (yes, i do know that they r good students, mostly smart too), made it seems as if roger kids and lanier elites r gods. my middle school, pershing, sounded like a joke. truth is, majority of pershing kids do acheive less than the other two, being much less concentrated on gap, having much less interest in math and science. but we r not all dumbasses as they thought we r, the rankings last semester shows, (thank you george li). to my knowledge we took up 1/5 of the top 20 ppl. the level of difficulty and competition in pershing is no where near the other two, i think we've done great. I, along w/ other ppl from pershing, worked hard for this, efforts r made, to show that there isnt that much of a diff b/w the schools anyway. not many expected us to be ranked so high, becuz we never went all around talkin about these stuff, discussing them, analyzing the best way to rank 1. to me the best and most simple way is just do well in w/e u r in, and it all turned out well anyway didnt it?
--------------------------------------------------------------------- in soph yr chem and bio ap doubling almost killed me. it was a really messy yr both in and out of school for me and i dont blame school for my doing badly in it. but i seriously doubted if i was being too confident, if all my ideas r wrong. but i still didnt add any extra class the yr after, 7 classes, tho all ap. more focused in school, did well, and made up the loss from earlier. in junior yr i finally learned about the existence of schools other than UT, rice, harvard stanford and princeton. i didnt see the point of going to ivy for college tho, money+lack of fun+more competitive+less chance of gettin in its own graduate school didnt seem to be very appealing. nyu was added to my college selection tho, thru the influence of friends. then senior yr, then now. the reason for me choosing nyu for my top college is no longer (in fact no where near) the reason i chose it when i first heard about it. and rice totally dropped out of the selection. my interest in major changed from animation, to architecture to interior design, then to business. i realized that, even tho it sounds lame, money is the key to alot of things, if not everything. so nyu, capital of business, is the place for me. i'll even try to graduate early, to save money to begin w/. i do regret not doing ib sometimes, as it might've earned me more hrs in college if i go to ut, but then again, all the extra time doesnt seem worth it. .. ...................................ergh somehow i forgot the main point of this whole thing so..ergh..before i remember, it'd be..TO BE CONTINUED... |
